Mother’s Day – “A Day of Thank You(s)”

Mother’s day is a day that should definitely be celebrated for mothers hold a special place in this world. Their unique role in our lives has such a tremendous impact that the world just wouldn’t be the same without them. They exude so much love in this world percolating through even the most obdurate human being.

Without mothers, there would be no such thing as life. All our lives start in our mother’s womb. And for most of us, our mothers played an integral and vital role in every step of our development. From allaying our fear of witches, to alleviating the pain we felt when we were sick, our mothers, more often than not, thought and cared for us even during the times that we didn’t care. 

The pacifying powers of mother’s have become so prosaic and mundane to most of us that we end up taking it for granted and forgetting how much our mothers ooze with love and care for us. Just take one second and imagine what life would be like if your mother didn’t care about you or wasn’t there at all.

Who would come to your rescue when your requests you to bring eccentric materials to school? Who would put up with your fatuousness and peculiarity? Who would you go to when you need a appeasing voice? Who would be there when you were at your lowest point not sure what to do in life? Who would reassure you that you are special when you doubted yourself? Who would support you in all the endeavors you entered no matter how anomalous your interests were?

Yes, believe it or not, we have to accept the fact that no matter how bossy or abrasive our mothers may be at times, they’re still our mom who was there for us during our highest and lowest moments in life. 

On this day, I’d like to thank you, mommy, for everything you’ve done for me. Thank you for giving birth to me and not stopping to love me ever since. Thank you for disciplining me and raising me to become who I am today, even if at times I may have hated you for being such a disciplinarian, I know it was for my own good.

Thank you for the times for giving in to my requests and always thinking about my welfare. Thank you for accepting me even if at times I may be disobedient, adamant, reckless, impulsive, pugnacious or cantankerous. Thank you for supporting me in all my interests (from Digimon, to Beyblade, to Crush Gear, to Yugioh, to Pokemon, to Hockey, to Basketball and everything in between). Thank you for being there for me during the good times and bad.

Lastly, thank you for your never ending love, care and support! I may not be the most obedient son, or the perfect person, but without a doubt, I’m definitely a better person because of you!

I LOVE YOU! HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY! 🙂

Mother’s Day 

-DOitChoco

Phantasmagorical Moments that Make Life Worth Living – Feb 12, 2013

*This was written during Feb 13, 2013, but I only got the time to post it now so the use of “yesterday” and “last night” may be a bit confusing.

Feb 12, 2013 was one of the most surreal days in my life for it was a day filled with emotions and feelings that I will never be able to fully explain. What happened yesterday night (feb 12, 2013) is something that I will never ever forget for it was, in more ways than one, one of the most heart-throbbing moment in my life. Without further ado, it was the night I finally got my act together and PROMposed to the one friend who truly made the past year, a year like no other.

As you’ve probably read in my post titled, “The One Promblem where Imperfect is Perfect,” prom and finding the right date has been bothering for the past few weeks and even months. It was only last night (Feb 12, 2013) that all my confusion, anxiety and stressing over Prom was finally alleviated.

There’s always a first time and what happened on that day was a day full of firsts. It’s quite dumbfounding how when I was preparing to ask and the entire day prior to me asking, I felt so nervous and I just wanted the day to end; But looking back, I actually want to be able to do it all over again for I want to experience that mystifying fervor and zeal once more. Life truly is full of surprises and unpredictable twists and turns. I will never truly understand how in one moment we can feel this way, but in a few moments after, feel the exact opposite. We truly live in a bipolar world, where the scale can quickly be tipped into a different side. I’m not complaining or anything, for the unpredictability of life is what allows us to believe that, miracles do happen.

Quite honestly, 2 months ago, I never really thought of asking the person I just asked. It was only when I experienced that time of the year where you look back at everything that has happened that I truly realized that she was the only person I should ask for my life, more specifically my Junior Year, just wouldn’t be the same. She was the first girl friend who I really talked to and got to know better, so I guess it was just right for me to ask the one person who made my Junior year one of the craziest, highest and most memorable year in my life.

It was only when I left her house and sat in my car that what just happened started to sink in. It was one of the most fulfilling moments of my life for the butterfly build up in my stomach prior to asking was just out of this world. I am just really thankful to God that everything worked out. I was also really fortunate that her sister and her parents were very hospitable and amiable people. They showed no indifference whatsoever and were actually really vibrant and fervent about my plan of surprising this friend of mine.

In thinking up of my Promposal plan, I just wanted to do it in a simple but at the same time meaningful way. It may not have been the perfect Promposal, but I’m just happy that I was able to show my appreciation to this person who honestly, all jokes aside, changed me in more ways than one.

After asking, I just felt really good and it seemed as though I regained my zeal, fervor and vibrance. I felt so full of energy that I couldn’t really fall asleep even if I was really dead tired from all the preparations and thinking about that day I would ask. It was finally done, and now I could focus on making the most out of what is left of my Junior year.

I can truly say that moments like these are what makes life worth living. Although, it may have been some of the longest hours in my life, it’s quite ironic how what seemed like forever yesterday, quickly passed by and became an ephemeral moment that I will forever look back at for it was a moment full of firsts and a moment that truly filled me with feelings and emotions I will never be able to describe. Feb 12, 2013 was simply a phantasmagorical day!

-DOitChoco

“We All Have “Kwentos” (Filipino for Stories) to Tell”

It’s friday again, and another week has just quickly evaporated and flew by. Actually, I am really happy that this week has ended for it was really one hell of a week emotionally for me. I don’t really know why, but I just really felt sentimental about life and started really questioning myself about what life is truly about. Different scenarios, situations, memories, questions and problems started popping into my head and I was just really confused and my mind was messed up.

Like I’ve said numerous times before, I believe that everything has a reason and so I want to end this school week by writing about the things I’ve learned. The two main things I’ve learned is that first of all, “We must keep ourselves busy in order to avoid over thinking things,” and second, “We all have stories to tell.”

Yesterday was probably one of the hardest days I’ve had to go through in the past months. My head was just gonna explode and right from the beginning of the day, I was really emotional already. It was really uncharacteristic of me to be that way. I usually try to think positive and be happy, but everything was piling up and I just wanted life to slow down and give me a chance, a chance to think about what I’ve been doing in my life. I guess, yesterday was just another one of those days, where one starts to question his existence and purpose in life.

Luckily, I have friends who are there for me when I just need someone to talk to in order to forget about all the crazy things that has been happening. The problem was, my friend who I usually talk to wasn’t in such a good mood also, so instead of feeling better, I just got more emotional and felt sorry for my friend also. Although, I’m usually the one who tries to cheer people up and give words of wisdom, I was just to down yesterday to be in the right state of mind. Sometimes, I really need to learn how to listen to the advice I give others more often.

Although, my friends were not in such a good mood yesterday, one piece of advice from another friend of mine that really helped me overcome my emotional state was to find something to do and keep myself busy in order to prevent over thinking and questioning about life. After hearing that advice, I knew that she was right and that I needed to get back to just living life one day at a time and stop thinking about the past or the future. Like they say, “Live in the moment.”

Today was probably the only day, where I was back to my senses and thinking properly again. I told myself that it’s February already, a new month and a new start once again. Leave everything behind in the past months, move on and don’t commit the same mistakes again.

Because of the fact that a lot of my classmates were builders for the fair, the classroom was a bit empty, so our teachers were kinda light on us today. The lessons weren’t really that heavy and during chinese and CLE class, I got a chance to make “kwento” (tell a story) to a really close friend of mine about what has really been going on with me. Prior to this, no one really knew the full story of what I was so troubled about, and felt really relieving and gratifying to take out all those emotions and feelings by making “kwento” everything that has been really bothering me to this particular friend.

From this “kwento” session with my friend, I realized that I’m not as crazy as I thought and that what I’ve been thinking about is actually normal. Aside from this, I also realized that we all have stories to tell. Nobody is perfect and we will all have those trying times, challenging moments and surreal experiences. To say the least, that’s LIFE. At times, we don’t appreciated how blessed we are to be living such adventure filled lives. Now, I know that this is just another one of those stages of growing up and that I just have to stay strong no matter what, and keep believing that everything will turn out for the better.

I now have to hit the sack for this coming weekend will be AMAZING!! I can feel it! #ThinkPositive #LiveInTheMoment

-DOitChoco

A Not So Ordinary Day – “Life Is What You Make It.”

January 23, 2013, just another ordinary day in my life, this is if I chose to make it that way, but you know what, I’ve had enough. I’ve been playing the waiting game for too long. It’s time for a change, and a time to bring into life something I’ve always wanted to do since last year but never really had the guts to. This something is none other than starting a personal blog, where I can express what I feel and talk about anything and everything.

You may ask, Why today? Why not yesterday? Why not tomorrow? My answer, well, it’s fate I guess that I start my blog today, January 23, 2013. I just have this unexplainable feeling right now, and I’ve decided that there’s no better way to unleash the fury and lash out all the energy inside than by starting the blog that I promised myself I would this 2013.

It has been around 3-4 years when I first dwelled upon the term “blog.” I was quite intrigued by this alien word to me (at that time). If you asked me three years ago, whether I’d ever make a blog outside of school purposes, well, I’d probably, with no hesitation whatsoever, answer, “HELL NO!! NOT IN A THOUSAND YEARS!” But here we are, what can I say, feelings and emotions really do change as time flies by.

It’s actually quite baffling how someone a few years removed from dreading reading and writing would start his own blog out of his own free will. It’s a pretty crazy and perplexing story how I end up writing this first blog post, but you know what, I’m a firm believer in fate and the fact that everything truly does have a reason.

It was just this year (2013), when I got into a conversation with one of the battiest and craziest (in a good way) friends I’ve ever had for this friend was able to make me reflect and think deeply of things I’d never really think of and make me do things I previously thought I’d never ever do (like starting a blog). During that day, this person made me look back at the past years and everything I’ve done and accomplished so far in my life. Interestingly, one thing I came across as I walked down memory lane was my grade 7 English GEMS experience. It was in that class, where I learned how to explore and go past boundaries. It is where I also created my first ever video blog about …..DRUMROLL please….. “BLOGGING” (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=trEsw8mYAwk). Looking back, I just laugh at myself and how “totoy” (filipino term for childish) I looked. In a more serious note, it’s very astonishing how the stars align and how things work out. Here I am, 3 years after reporting about blogging, starting my own personal blog.

More importantly, looking back and reminiscing about the past made me realized how valuable projects like my video blog are and how watching these videos (or reading those previous essays I made 3-4 years ago) alleviate those emotional downs one occasionally goes through. It gives you a sense of being, and makes you feel consequential. Personally, I just couldn’t help but smile when I watched that video after all these years (3 years is still 3 years you know).

Time really does fly by. It seemed just like yesterday when I was stressing upon this video blog I had to make. It’s mind-boggling how a simple video blog can make me feel so sentimental about life and all the other awe-inspiring experiences I’ve had. In a perfect world, I’d probably have pictures for every moment, or even better yet, a video blog of my entire life, from the day I was born. Too bad though, we don’t live in a perfect world, but like I always say, “LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT.”  If there’s a will, there’s a way, and I’ve come to a conclusion that the second best thing would be to start a blog. There’s no better tool than the pen and I know writing about every life-changing experience I have will preserve those ephemeral moments that I once hoped would last forever.

This is hopefully just the start of more great things to come this 2013!

And yes, January 23, 2013, won’t be such an ordinary day anymore. 😀

“Life is what you make it.”

-DOitChoco